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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Aug 13, 2009 20:09:36 GMT -5
ati radeon 4800 series
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Aug 13, 2009 23:06:55 GMT -5
Its working! Thanks guys Yeah I was trying the new drivers idea but it wasn't working at first. I tried installing and reinstalling a few times but it was a no go each time. Then I noticed that the installer was failing to install one little thing. SOmething to do with visual C++ I think? Either way, I copy and pasted the name of it into Google, DLed it by itself and now everything is working. Geez, its only been one day of low res and as soon as I switch back to my normal max settings alluva sudden I realise just how crystal clear it looks. You don't know what ya got till its gone
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Post by Yvondith on Aug 17, 2009 12:56:10 GMT -5
I've been having to go to the doctor a lot lately. They're trying to help me with my depression, so I'm on new medication. I tried the Geodon but it made me feel like I was drunk, so I had to stop. I'm on Depakote now.
I go to see a psychologist on the 26th. Hopefully he will have more information to help me.
The thing that bugs me is that the doctors are still trying to pressure me into therapy and counseling, and I refuse to go. It was a total waste of time and money for me. I've been seeing therapists and counselors since I was 14, and it's never, ever helped. Just angers me that they keep trying to push me into it, even though I've told them it doesn't help me.
I know it works for most people, but it's pretty obvious by now, that I'm not most people. None of the medicines I've been on have helped for longer than a year, and I've not been able to completely shake the depression.
I've having a bout of it right now, been that way for the past 3 months. That is why I'm seeking help for it again. However, I'm ready to give up again, the constant whirlwind of appointments are getting to me, only to see doctors that aren't really listening. I know they've went to school for this stuff, but when I tell them something isn't helping, I really mean it! I've had reoccurring chronic depression for 12 years, so I think I know what I'm talking about too.
I'm just ready to call of the appointments for good, and just deal with it. Gonna try to go in on the 26th with an open mind, except about the therapy and counseling. Maybe this one won't be the typical self important asshole I've dealt with before. If it doesn't work out, I'm calling it quits on the doctors for this.
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Post by dejibo on Aug 18, 2009 8:28:02 GMT -5
I think I told you this, but have holes in my head, I may not have. The number ONE helpful thing for depression and anxiety conditions is medications AND talk therapy. I think you just havent found the right counselor. I think it would do you a world of good to have someone to bounce some of the BS off of that gets put upon you on a regular basis. Once you find a counselor that you can trust and confide in, it makes a HUGE difference.
Anxiety is in the depression family, just a different presentation. If you were having panic attacks instead of depression, you would want meds to help you cope, and someone to help teach you how to deal with the attacks when they come on, and how to prevent them from plopping you into your bed and keeping you there for weeks on end. Same for depression. you need someone to help teach you a better way to deal with it, other than slamming your door, screaming i have had enough, leave me the F alone. Then waiting for the storm to pass.
It is my great belief that you will always need help managing the chemical side of depression (hell look at your gene pool) but if you found the right counselor who could help you figure out better ways mid storm other than isolation, i believe your quality of life would improve drastically.
If one counselor doesnt fit, FIRE THEM! move to the next till you do find one that is helpful. Some folks go through a 12 or so before they find someone that fits them, their lifestyle, and their desires. I am here cheerleading for you.
IMHO.
I love you very much, and hate that you have to go through this crap. The people that currently surround you are stressful, and can be more than a bit pushy. Thank God for Tim! He is such a great addition to your life. I am glad you live so close.
Hang in there! you know where to find me.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Aug 18, 2009 10:26:15 GMT -5
I agree with Dej. I would highly reccomend the therpists. Keep searching till you find one that clicks.
I wouldn't be putting all my eggs in anti depressants myself. I was never a big fan of "happy" pills. They only take you so far and they usually have weird side effects. I can't imagine them being very good for you. More so if you keep changing them like you say.
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Post by Yvondith on Aug 18, 2009 10:49:07 GMT -5
I had a good therapist once, one I enjoyed talking to. But, I didn't feel that it helped my depression. All of this crap about how to deal with it is bull. You *can't* deal with it with my family. I prefer not to talk about my depression and/or stress, but others love to be vocal about what is bugging them, and it makes me worse. I KNOW you know what I'm talking about, Dej. Granny won't let a damn thing die quietly. Same with Dad, Mom, and Rebecca. The stress never completely dies, they repeatedly trash each other around me, and keep me upset. Just never felt that it helped. I really don't like talking about it with others, besides you guys. I hate therapy too, I just feel like I'm going on and on about the same old stuff, almost automatically. I don't like it. I come away feeling like I've accomplished nothing but wasting time. Also, there's only so many times you have to make a list about "what you like/dislike about yourself" before you get sick of it. Here lately, besides what I'm currently dealing with in Grannyland, I do not know why I'm depressed enough to talk about it. Well, I know some things are causing it, like the lack of employment, etc. Most of what I'm feeling is "invisible" almost. I'm bummed out, depressed, and I don't know why exactly. And of course, this is the largest reason I don't want therapy... I can't DRIVE. Getting to appointments is difficult, and a pain in the ass. There's no decent bus service nearby either. To get to a place that takes my low income assistance programs, I'd have to go to Henderson county, instead of Polk. It's just not easy to get there, without having to interrupt a family member's busy schedule to take me. Nevermind that each session costs money, money I don't have. There's a lot of reasons I simply do not want to do therapy. I know it helps most, but I don't think it's right for me in my current situation.
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Post by Office Ninja on Aug 18, 2009 13:51:24 GMT -5
Do you guys have any kind of hotline yo ucan call to talk to someone? I know we do out here. Not sure abotu all areas though. Over the phone can be just as good as in person honestly.
I dont know how true depression works but when things bother me I take a walk. There is a nice walking trail along the river out here that is kind of quiet on my side of town. There are lots off wooded areas and stuff to, so it is fun to go out on my own and just think about everything. Its not for everyone but it really helps me. It gets me away from everything that is stressfull. And with the job I just quit it was very much needed almost daily.
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Post by Yvondith on Aug 18, 2009 18:17:44 GMT -5
Hotlines are a no-go either, I don't have typical phone service, I'm on Tracfone. I try to walk daily still, but I really haven't found it to be helpful. If anything, it just leaves me alone with my thoughts, which usually turns out ugly. The best therapy I've found so far are the video games, because it redirects my train of thought away from myself, and onto the game. Keeps me from fretting over my current situation, or the events of the day.
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Post by dejibo on Aug 18, 2009 18:48:35 GMT -5
OMG OMG OMG you guys have NO idea how bad Granny can be! its like a rabid dog with a bone. she will chew it to splinters, and then suck the marrow out of it, and then toss the slivers around the yard, and then bury it, and dig it up again, just to be sure its still there, then when bored with it, will dig up a bone long ago buried and forgotten and start all over again. The anger! OMG the anger! the venom, and the snot. wooo! hicketty hicketty hoo haw! then someone else shows up to visit, and makes a "fishing" remark like "have you seen so and so lately?" and off they go! its really hard to deal with.
I do hope steph can find a solution to the madness other than hiding in the house. hang in there.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Aug 18, 2009 18:57:40 GMT -5
I try to walk daily still, but I really haven't found it to be helpful. If anything, it just leaves me alone with my thoughts, which usually turns out ugly. The best therapy I've found so far are the video games, because it redirects my train of thought away from myself, and onto the game. Keeps me from fretting over my current situation, or the events of the day. That's the point of the walking though. If you play video games and bury your thoughts you're not dealing with them and nothing is being solved. Going for a walk and being alone with your thoughts may sound bad at first but its the best way to get through it cause you're actually face to face with your problems and can actually meet them head on. Obviously it won't happen right away but it takes time.
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Post by Caller on Aug 18, 2009 20:58:29 GMT -5
wooo! hicketty hicketty hoo haw! Sigged. <.<
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Post by dejibo on Aug 20, 2009 7:52:43 GMT -5
I have been playing this baby game from the Wii called Order up! its about a chef who works at restaurants, and this red neck boy keeps coming in to eat. As he enters he says all sorts of crazy shit, but my fav is "hicketty hicketty hoo haw!" He says "I tip better than I smell" or "why is everybudy always staring at me?" he has a tin can on his head. Too funny.
I agree about walking, and dealing with your own thoughts. its a natural way of your body working through stress. ignoring stressful situations, and people wONT make it better, it will only make it appear another day in bigger, badder forms. Your brain engaging and mulling over things is a great way to work out ways to handle it. "maybe I should say this, or do that" its supposed to be helpful not painful. Running will only get you so far, and then your gonna realize your wearing a back pack, and you cant take it off. As far as you run, it will still be strapped upon you. I would much rather see you learn strategies to deal with it, instead of ignoring it. Ignoring it doesnt work any better than talking it to death.
Tons of debates going on here lately. 90% of the MDs up here have stopped taking medicaid/medicare patients. Its rare to find one that will, and if you do, they are not taking new patients. My MD has been one of the rare few that will, and it appears that his office may be closing due to the strain of the hundreds and hundreds of folks that are beating down his door. This whole obama care has the entire state in an uproar. its getting tense around here.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Aug 22, 2009 9:18:40 GMT -5
Vacation time! See you guys in three weeks.
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Post by dejibo on Aug 25, 2009 14:22:05 GMT -5
I got a new toy today. I picked up the elements version of Dragon NaturallySpeaking. I have been trying to learn how to use it. It's a ton of fun in tiny easy, but I have a lot of learning to do.
Since I got the elements version for $39, I don't have a lot of toys that the big full version has. I probably would never learn how to use those toys anyway. If you buy the full version for $99, there is a $49 rebate. I looked everywhere and nobody has the full version in stock, I could find the blue tooth version for $249 but that was way too much money for me.
So it looks like the next couple of days I will be playing with this.
What are you guys up to?
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Post by Yvondith on Aug 25, 2009 15:13:56 GMT -5
What is that, exactly?
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