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Post by dejibo on May 4, 2010 11:01:21 GMT -5
I DONT have the porphyria stuff they talked about. ALL tests came back negative for it. I Have MS and part of it is Gastroparesis or a damaged vagus nerve which controls the stomach. My stomach isnt pushing food thru once I swallow it. it just lays in my stomach. I have dropped another 30 pounds! I am feeling some better, and have stopped puking thank god.
Morgan is still kicking. She is eating, drinking on her own, toilets herself, and is aware of who she is, and where she is, so for now, the 23 year old cat lives. She is getting more and more confused,and is starting to show some hiding behaviors. ONce she turns that corner, I will call the vet to come put her down. It will crack my heart in two, but I wont let her suffer to death. For now, she is ok.
I spent the greater part of the month of April IN the damn hospital. April 1st was my IVSM treatment, and april 30th I was released from the inpatient ward. sheesh! I am glad to be home.
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Post by Office Ninja on May 4, 2010 13:48:00 GMT -5
Oh Maggie, I don't even want to think about you having to call the vet for your kitty. That was the hardest thing I have ever done. It still upsets me and its been a year.
In better less sad news...
I have lost 45 pounds! I am now at 285! WOOO! I cant believe it but I am making great progress. I think I will hit my goal of 100 by october with no problem. SQUEE!!
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on May 4, 2010 18:41:20 GMT -5
Well I'm glad you're out of the hospital for now, Dej. Hopefully everything goes well for that. And hopefully your kitty will last a while longer before having to be put under. That has to be hard to do. I have never had to do it yet but I can't say I'd want to. Grats on the weight loss, Kik. Keep going! I myself have been at a stand still for the longest time. I hang between 253-257. I can't seem to get past the 253 mark. I'm still working at it. Might have something to do wtih the fact that I am doign weights too. Muscle weighs more than fat so I could be burning calories still but just not losing weight cause I'm adding to it with muscle. Iono.
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Post by Yvondith on May 4, 2010 20:01:47 GMT -5
I think I've gained weight. Ugh. I gotta try to get back on target with my weight loss. Unfortunately I've felt really crappy all month, so I haven't exactly been trying.
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Post by Yvondith on May 6, 2010 18:32:54 GMT -5
I went in for a "psychiatric evaluation" today. I was told that I don't have Bi-Polar disorder, yet again, and that I have fairly severe anxiety and fear in general. But, he said there was hope for me, and that I wasn't crazy, so huzzah.
Hopefully I can get on the right track here, and move on with my life.
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Post by Office Ninja on May 7, 2010 2:23:42 GMT -5
Fear in General? What does that mean?
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Post by Yvondith on May 7, 2010 5:56:52 GMT -5
General probably wasn't the best choice of wording there, sorry. I fear driving, which boils down to fear of death, or causing the death of others, and I have a major fear of failure. I have nightmares on a regular basis that I'm in school, and failing. Or, I'm trying to do anything, and I can't, or I fail at it. I think the fear of failure is a really huge issue for me.
From fear, the anxiety grows. Sometimes it's to the point that it's damn near crippling. I may look "fine" to others, but, I'm not.
At any rate, I'm going to start therapy, and get my medications evaluated yet again.
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Post by dejibo on May 7, 2010 7:26:47 GMT -5
many folks in your family have anxiety, including me! I worked very hard to overcome my attacks. I used to sit in my car and bawl before going into work. It was all mind over matter that got me thru that door. I lied to myself constantly to keep me moving forward. I had periods where I would sit in my house and just sob about how bad things were. With a good MD, and good meds, and good habits, I moved forward. I am not anxiety free today, but I am 97% better than I was. Watch the self talk. Be a good mommy to yourself, and be a good cheerleader for yourself, even if you dont believe it. Fake it till you make it. Look in the mirror everyday, and tell yourself that you like yourself, and you CAN do this! silly, but it worked for me.
I am going for my one week out of the hospital check up today. My tummy still aint right, but its better than it was. no more puking. even if I am nauseous as hell. no more puking. I am working hard on overcoming this event. They are calling it an MS event. how lovely! doesnt that makeit all better?
What are the rest of you up to? btw, my old cat still lives.
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Post by Office Ninja on May 15, 2010 3:05:03 GMT -5
I should learn not to go to Best Buy. I wanted to look at the new Mac Laptops and they had them available. I have been talking about getting a new one due to wanting to take one with me when I go out taking pictures. The problem is they offered me a credit card. I of course thought, oh why not. I will never get approved. Sure enough I am approved and 20 minutes later I am walking out with my shiny new Macbook. Bryce is sooo bad. He never even tried to talk me out of it. Jerk.
I love this thing.
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Post by Office Ninja on May 19, 2010 21:38:57 GMT -5
I am really tired of the Tornado sirens going off. Again. Twice today already. Stupid storms.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on May 19, 2010 22:00:14 GMT -5
Don't get blown away! So a new girl started at work today. She is pretty and has green hair and I am in love with her. Or maybe its lust. Its hard to tell the differance sometimes. I don't know her name yet so I nicnamed her Rydia until I find out her name. And when I do I will go up to her and be like "Hey, baby! Uhm......wanna summon Ifrit with me?" ;D
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Post by dejibo on May 20, 2010 7:06:31 GMT -5
My tummy is calmer. Whew! thank GOD! I was miserable. They are saying that I MAY have that ANS or autonomic MS component, and not just the CNS MS. Dear God, can you throw anything else at me? They just have no idea why my tummy went nuts, and that is frustrating. One says its MS, one says no way!, and others say ...dont know, just glad its resolving! MDs do alot of guessing. bastards! Kitty is still kicking! blind as a bat, and sings half the night, but she eats by herself, toilets herself, and can move about the house. Just dont move the furniture. I got a new water bubbler for the kitties, and lily thinks its a foot washer. She keeps sticking her dirty feet in it! Jack has been sitting near the old lady, and seems to be keeping watch over her. He is a sweet kitty. what are the rest of you up to?
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Post by Yvondith on May 20, 2010 10:56:33 GMT -5
Glad to hear that Morgan is still doing OK. I hope you get feeling better as well. Nothing much going on in my neck of the woods.
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Post by Office Ninja on May 21, 2010 20:30:04 GMT -5
Had one hell of a migraine last night. Went to bed about midnight and woke up at 1pm. Still kicking. Stayed home from work and went back to bed. Finally woke again about an hour ago and it seems to have faded. I don't know where the hell this thing came from, I havn't had a migraine in years. I get lots of headaches but nothing like this. Kinda scary. Especially since it lasted that long. I even got so nauseous that I threw up. Scary.
So now I'm lounging in the recliner listening to some peaceful music while I wait on Bryce to get home. Its a boring day by myself. I used to love them, but now I really hate sitting here with nothing to do. Maybe I will draw or write or something. We shall see. Im thinking sitting in front of the computer here might not be such a good idea.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on May 22, 2010 0:37:50 GMT -5
Migraines are ten times worse than headaches. I've never had one but from what I understand they can make your whole body hurt. I hope you get better So....I found out today that Rydia's real name is......Betty. Yep, Betty. Not exactly a name you hear everyday
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