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Post by Yvondith on Jun 2, 2012 20:30:55 GMT -5
Gained .6 pounds this week. Not as bad as previous weeks, but it is still weight gain. I have to start working harder. Much, much harder than what I am doing right now.
I bought another cookbook today, the power foods cookbook. Power foods are the things we are really encouraged to eat. Lean meats, veggies, fruit... that sort of thing.
I have to get myself prepared to start cooking three meals a day if I plan on succeeding. I have got to wean myself off of processed foods. Those have way too much sodium. I need to regulate my sodium intake, my blood pressure was up yesterday when I went to see the doctor.
Also, nifty little quote I just heard... "Worthless people live to eat and drink. People of worth eat and drink to live." Or, something like that. Alton Brown said it, but he didn't coin the phrase. I love Alton Brown.
I'm going to the doctor to get off my anti-depressants. I've been without them for about a week. I'm starting to notice some... disturbing... thoughts again. Suicidal thoughts I guess. So, I may need to cut two out of three. The wellbutrin isn't that bad, it has several positive side effects, one of which is no weight gain. I gotta get off the other two. I can't expect to kick the Klonopin habit either, I don't think I'll ever be able to get away from needing it occasionally. I never know when an emotional emergency will strike. Gonna get off what I can. Maybe I can get my mental clarity back. That would mean the world to me.
So, Granny is NOT a happy camper in rehab. She says her pain medicine was cut, and she's a grouchy bitch because of it. I told her to hang in there, behave, and do what they tell her to do and it will be over before she knows it.
I'm getting worried though, she's becoming more and more forgetful. It's scary. It's not too bad yet but she's definetly showing signs of pre-alzheimer's. I'm hoping there's something they can do to slow it down. Scares me to think that the person I've known all my life may suddenly turn into someone who doesn't even know who I am. Though, my other grandmother, Helen, who passed over 10 years ago... she never forgot my father. Never. She called her daughter Patricia "That bitch that works at the café." Scary.
I gotta research how I can help Granny out, and to prolong this as long as possible.
Anyways, keep Granny in your thoughts, please. She's tough as nails, but not tough enough to defeat something like Alzheimer's.
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 6, 2012 10:34:05 GMT -5
Sorry for the multi-post. Granny is supposed to be released on Friday. So she says. It's more like she told them "I'm going home on Friday." So, we'll see. She has picked a really, really bad time to start showing her ass. She's been aggressive, ornery, ill tempered, you name it. Her mental state is all over the place. One second she's praising me, the next breath she's telling me that I'm so lazy, she'd have to kick me in the ass 3 times to make me catch my breath... or something. It's not just me either, she's doing it to the entire family. My mother is scum. Dejibo is scum. My father is scum. And so on and so forth. This is really not making her look good. I'm still scared to death they're gonna chuck her ass in a nursing home if she doesn't behave. She's not senile yet, but I fear it won't be long before she is. Scares me so badly. My mother is telling me that if something happens to Granny, I'll have to move in with her. I won't have a choice unless I can drive, have a job, and my own place by then. I'm trying to speed my life goals along, but I can't get over this damned driving hump, because no one has the time to get in the car with me while I drive. So frustrating. Also, I'm working on getting off of my Celexa and Abilify. I feel like absolute crap. I ache all over, and I'm an emotional ticking time bomb. ...I'm thinking more clearly though!
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Post by Caller on Jun 8, 2012 14:06:10 GMT -5
Back from a hiatus since I blew my back out. Couldn't even sit in a chair without crying in pain. That sucked. Old man jokes may commence. Going on "vacation" the week after next with Ben and his family. Wish me luck there...
As far as Granny she's someone you will 100% have to watch. She is showing signs of Alzheimer's. Random outbursts followed by diabetes laced sugar sweetness followed by "wut" is a huge alarm. If I were you, you better get your family off their asses and get you driving and a job because if you move in with her, depending on your state laws you may become responsible for her, and you will not be able to become power of attorney over her without a steady backing which will make it go to her next of kin. And god help you all if that's your mother.
Need them convinced? Tell them what I just told you. And seriously, if Granny doesn't have a will she better get one now. They're not kidding when they say "of sound mind and body" because they *WILL* overturn statements in a will if it is determined she wasn't sane at the time of the drafting. We nearly had that trouble with our grandmother. In PA, if you don't have a will, the *STATE* gets your possessions, not next of kin, so you better check that out.
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 8, 2012 23:58:00 GMT -5
I told her exactly what you said, and got a "Yeah, I know...". I've explained to her that you've had experience with this, and you know what you are talking about. I'm going to keep pushing her to get that will made, and tie up any loose ends. I return to driving lessons soon, I really tried to make my father understand that it absolutely critical that I get my license and start driving as soon as possible. She was released today, I had to go out there and be "shown" how to use the simplest back brace ever. Then I saw why she wanted to leave... they're showing her shit she already knows what to do. My mother and I both backed her up; she's been handicapped all of her life. She knows how to move, and how to do things to protect herself from falls and strain. She's had surgery, and it wasn't brain surgery. She's not retarded for fuck's sake.
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 16, 2012 11:27:49 GMT -5
I've rejoined Facebook. I would have went back to my old account, but I no longer have the cell phone I need to use to confirm my login. So fuck it. I'm Duvemora there now. www.facebook.com/duvemoraI send Kik a friend invite, and if anyone else is on feel free to friend me. I am having a really rough time withdrawing from my anti-depressants. I'm irritable, cranky, angry, and generally a ticking time bomb just waiting to go off on someone. Never mind the fact that I ache all over. Hope this passes soon.
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Post by dejibo on Jun 18, 2012 10:00:39 GMT -5
Long time no see to steph--granny will do EXACTLY what granny wants to do, when she wants to do it, and she will continue to blame the rest of the world for her misery. She will NEVER accept that she is broke cause she gives her money to a drug addict. She is sick cause she wont follow the MDs advice. She is stuck because she stuck herself there. She will continue to be a victim till the day she dies. As far as a will, I have sent her several thru the years. I have had them drawn up to HER specific words, and when she gets them, she accuses me of trying to finagle her out of her money. (even tho my name is clearly spelled out as receiving ZERO things or money. It was also drawn up at HER request. She refuses to sign them, act on them, or file them. Same thing for the medical power of atty, and the financial POA. If she cant get to the bank to pay bills, she needs someone trustworthy to have access so the bills can be paid. Then if she dies, that person still has permission to tap the account to pay her final expenses. No POA means no access. its a tangled web that she has weaved for herself. You are correct that she is displaying LARGE signs of being unstable, and confused as well as dementia setting in. If she doesnt sign something soon (even now you may be blocked if your mom fights) then ALL her stuff, money, and possessions will go to the state, and you will have to pay HUGE fees to fight for it. I have explained this to her many times in many ways, and did it at a time when she was of sound mind. She didnt want to hear it then, and she dont want to hear it now. As for your situation. I hope you are back on your meds, more stable, and moving YOUR life forward. You must start thinking of YOUR future. I think you know what you have to do, and I wish you much luck in getting it done. Life can be hard. Trust me MS sucks! I have had flare after flare, issue after issue, and while I am still recovering between attacks, I lose a bit of ground with each one. Just wanted to pop in to say im proud of you, and to wave at the rest of the gang.
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 19, 2012 14:32:35 GMT -5
I went back on the Celexa. I feel better already. I'm not a volcano of anger today.
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Post by dejibo on Jun 23, 2012 8:07:33 GMT -5
Im glad you are doing what YOU need to do for YOU. To heckpie with the woman who thinks you should be drug free and skipping thru fields of poppies all happy smappy. she doesnt have to live your life. She gets to visit and when she gets tired of it, she gets to close the door and go home to her money, and riches. Maids, pools, and so forth. Hell if I got to live that life I too would be scratching my head asking why I needed and AD. As it is she wont allow her son the diabetic to take INSULIN! now thats a shame! she should be reported for that. He already lost both his legs to it. Glad you are following your own piper.
HOT HOT HOT here! holy shit!
My surprise b/d party is tonight! (shhh dont tell anyone) and its going to be a blast!
im off to do house work a bit cause with this many people in town, you know someone is gonna want to stay over.
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 25, 2012 10:19:52 GMT -5
It's Dejibo's Birthday! *confetti*
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Jun 25, 2012 20:30:26 GMT -5
Happy birthday, Dejibo! Cheers to you! ;D
And cheers to me too! I asked a girl out today. Completely spontaneous, not planned, I don't even know her etc. I was walking to the train station and when I get there I see her. She sees me, smiles at me. She's pretty but, more importantly, I got a real good vibe from her. Its not that often I get that. I usually see women in public places and think they are damn attractive. Sometimes I get a smile. But I never get a "vibe" from them. Not to say they are bitches or anything but there just aren't any "sparks" I guess you could say. This one caused sparks. I make sure I get on the train on the same door as her. The train's crowded so we stand beside each other. I glance at her, see her glance back at me. I'm struggling in my head, trying to find something to say but can't. I take my iPod out of my pocket and turn it off and see that she's getting ready to do the same. As if she's expecting me to start talking to her. But I naturally freeze up and lose my nerve. The train stops at our destination and there is a huge cluster fuck of people getting off the train so we lose each other. I'm kicking myself for missing an opportunity. But then I see her at the bike stalls where you chain up your bike. How she got so far ahead of me I have no idea. But I see this as my last chance so I tap her on the shoulder and ask her out. She says yes and takes my phone number. WOOT!
Her name is Maria, pronounced with a European accent (she's Serbian), and has aqua, green eyes. Very lovely looking. I don't wanna go into this expecting everything to go well and dandy though. I don't want to get my hopes up. But I asked her out and she said yes. This is only my second time doing this and it was with a stranger. So even if things don't go well when we go out I will for sure give my self an "A" for effort. Even though effort starts with an "E". So "A" for affort? ;D
Eh? Yeah? Get it? No? -_-
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 25, 2012 21:51:10 GMT -5
You go boi! Go get her, tiger! ;D Good luck with your date.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Jun 25, 2012 21:58:40 GMT -5
If/when it happens, but yes. Thanks.
Gotta wait for a phone call first. I'm guessing she'll wait till the weekend.
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Post by Office Ninja on Jun 27, 2012 18:01:08 GMT -5
If you want to go out on a date silly just ask me!
But yeah, good for you I guess. Im sure she is lovely. Or something.
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Post by Norfy the Walrus on Jun 28, 2012 21:08:38 GMT -5
As amazing as you are, you are in another country, Kikerz. That and you don't have boobs. ;D
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Post by Yvondith on Jun 29, 2012 6:31:29 GMT -5
As amazing as you are, you are in another country, Kikerz. That and you don't have boobs. ;D Y'know, dudes can get breast implants too! There's still hope for you yet! XD
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